Free and NOT Bi-Polar!

Free and NOT Bi-Polar!

My sisters and I never knew in what mood they’ll be coming home, and my Mom many times didn’t even show up. She went missing for weeks and her behavior was totally out of control most of the time.  By age 8 I was adopted by 2 great parents, but before being adopted I spent 2 years in an orphanage for minors.

The first time I saw my new parents, without knowing anything about God, I heard the sweetest voice I have ever heard — words are not enough to describe it.  The Holy Spirit said to me: “This is going to be the new family I have for you,” and as a kid I was wondering “WOW” — what was that?  Later on, when I accepted Jesus Christ as my Lord and Savior, I understood that I had heard the audible voice of God speaking to me!  He  not only told me about this new family I was going to have, but that he loved me so much, that He knew me before I was conceived, and that He had a great plan for my life — a plan to prosper me and give me a hope and a future.

I accepted Jesus as my Lord and Savior shortly after I was adopted.  I had a very open spirit and even though I was a very scared little girl I wasn’t afraid to let Jesus come into my heart.  I knew it was the right thing to do and that I was safe in him.  Time went by and I grew up but I never really was free from bondages over my life.

In my late twenties I did very destructive things because I believed a big lie that I needed to experience what the world offered.  I was totally wrong, and all I ever found was despair and shame.  I started exhibiting some severe mood problems, and I became constantly enraged.  I was constantly arguing with people I loved and cared about.  Because of some very cruel things I said to some friends, it affected my relationship with them, and they did not want to have anything to do with me.

When I was 23 years old my father tried to commit suicide in our own home.  It was a total shock to me.   I was so angry.  It was such a hard thing for me that my brain could not take the trauma, and it felt like it collapsed.   All I could remember was feeling so angry that I could not cry and even talk right. I started experiencing problems with severe depression so I could not concentrate in my studies.  I had to drop out of the university.

My mother took me to several psychiatrists, and one of the psychiatrists told me that I had a condition which is well known as Bipolar Disorder.  When I first heard this, I could not believe it, and I never accepted completely this diagnosis.  My mother never accepted the diagnosis and proclaimed my healing.   The doctor gave me mood stabilizers, antidepressants and antipsychotic medications, and I took all these medicines for 8 years.   They did help me to improve somewhat, but did not solve the root of the problem.    I was becoming very tired of taking all these medicines, so I would stop taking them once in a while.  My body was so used to them that I could not spend two days without them without causing me to behave in a total fit.  My behavior would be totally out of control, and it made life difficult for people close to me.

The doctors kept telling me that I had to be on medication for the rest of my life because I was just one of those patients that would never get better. Meanwhile during these 8 years of taking psychiatric medicines, I had 4 hospitalizations 3 of those in a horrible psychiatric hospital that treats their patients horribly.

I had caring pastors, family and friends who helped me in so many situations.  They loved me and were very patient with me, and I believe that God used them mightily to help me cope because sometimes I could no longer take it, I was extremely tired of everything and I had lost hope.

Then finally the great blessing came some of my friends told me about a ministry called Freedom Encounters and how they had developed a deliverance prayer that really made a difference in their lives.   They encouraged me to take a look at their website and read all the materials and to watch their “Victory Over Spiritual Conflict” seminar (VOSC).  There was a big spiritual struggle going on, while I was trying to read all the materials and watch the VOSCseminar taught by the Thornbergs.  I kept going because I knew deep inside of me that it was God’s plan for me to receive the deliverance prayer from Freedom Encounters.  Then everything fell into place, and God provided for the Thornbergs to travel to Costa Rica and help minister freedom to me and others.

My Deliverance Day took place on July 11th and this has been the most amazing day of my life — the Lord released me from all my medications.  During my deliverance prayer the Lord said that the Bipolar Disorder was 100% demonically caused and that I no longer needed to take medicines.  He took me off of 2 different medicines the same day of my deliverance prayer and weaned me off from the strongest medicine from 200 mg to 10 mg right away.  The Lord was very specific that I was just suppose to take the 10 mg for 5 weeks and after that, drop that last medicine.

God really did a miracle in my life.  I am not having any side effects from dropping my medicines drastically.  This time was the time that the Lord had made for me to walk in complete freedom.   I have no fear in me because I know who the best Doctor in the entire world is; the Lord answered the request of my heart.  He knew that I was tired and weary and he came to set me free from all bondages.  Now I am a total different person because of what God did that day.   I am finally happy and I am full of God’s love and where there was pain and sorrow now there is joy, peace, and hope.

I encourage every person that reads this testimony to not give up, believe in God and He will make a way for you. Know that you are His precious possession forever, that you were created to be loved and to love others. You are the apple of His eye, just run into His arms.  No matter what you have gone through there is always hope, and God can heal anything!  You just need to believe in Him and give Him a chance to work in and through you.  I support and recommend Freedom Encounters Deliverance Prayer to anyone that wants to be truly free.  Don’t hesitate — just move towards your new journey with the Lord.  He is waiting patiently for you, and all you have to do is grab His hand.

My special thanks go to Ken and Sylvia, Freedom Encounters Ministries and my friends that were there for me in good and hard times. Thank you and God bless you!