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Having been diagnosed as Multiple Personality Disorder in my early teens;
I lived a lifestyle that was disorderly, corrupted and out of control.
I came from a past filled with sexual, verbal and physical abuse that
caused much havoc inwardly as well as outwardly, having been sexually
abused at a tender age of one.
I grew up with much fear, anxiety, deep depression and unexplainable
behavior, always tormented with nightmares and voices in my head. Had
NO peace at all. This lifestyle of torment leaked into my adult life,
causing my home life and marriage to be a living nightmare. Of course
my suicidal tendencies and stripper mentality of 12 years only added
to my unacceptable and uncontrollable behavior.
I finally made a decision to share with my husband about the abuse,
as he was always a supportive of me to best of his ability by sending
me to therapy, costing lots of money with NO remedy! I was only coping
and being told that I needed to be medicated or that it would take years
before I was healed. With much despair and crying I began to pray and
ask my Heavenly Father to lead me to the right people that would position
me for TRUE FREEDOM!
Keep in mind that I had indeed had alters, but some were really demons.
This created an environment that was not suitable for even our dogs.
After so many years of living in pain with much harassment and nightmares
continually, my husband and I decided that we needed to pray for the
leading of Holy Spirit to lead us into the path of FREEDOM! For I was
not settling for “coping”!
Having given up (!), Father God sent “Freedom Encounters” as
my heart was repositioned to accept indeed that I did have MPD and that
I needed healing. For quite some time I went into denial mode because
I couldn’t handle it!
My sessions consisted of deep wounded memories of a painful abuse filled
with demons popping up left and right. These sessions caused me to be
bedridden for days. Freedom consisted of healing of painful memories,
integration of all alters, and destroying the demonic in the process.
My severe stomach attacks disappeared that I lived with for over 20
years.I am on NO medication today and able to eat whatever my heart desires.
I say this because before if I touched certain foods, I would vomit and
experience severe stomach pains for days that led me to the emergency
room week after week.
As weeks became months I began to sense and experience physical changes
such as
- I do not lose my temper, for I don’t have one now
- I am not easily angered
- I do not have re-occurring nightmares of sexual perverted dreams
- I can handle stressful situations without falling apart
- I have controlled my spending money and only buy what I need
- I am not depressed anymore
- I do not have voices in my head or mind
- I am not a fear-based individual anymore
- I have absolutely NO need for medication
- I don’t suffer headaches any longer
As there have been physical changes, I have experienced spiritual changes
as well:
- I have awesome intimate times with my Heavenly Father
- I experience the full rest of God
- I am able to understand (Rhema word) the Word of God
- I can "STAND" for myself and others
Attending a Freedom Encounters conference at my church with Sylvia & Ken
Thornberg just put all the pieces of the puzzle together in my life to
help me understand what had happened. Today I live in complete FREEDOM
as I abide in Christ, standing beside those that need FREEDOM!
Nothing else worked for me! This is not a formula that is magically
applied. This is the hand of the JESUS reaching into those places that
are wounded and shattered by abuse to bring wholeness to the heart, mind
and body!
WOW! THANKS FREEDOM ENCOUNTERS
M, Quebec, 162
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